This blanket was made in perfect timing, despite it being intended for the year 2020. It was meant to be to be made with deep prayer in this very season, right now. Every stitch was made while I whispered prayers for a dear friend of our family while she bravely fought to live. My heart was grieving her situation and prognosis with each update. I hurt deeply and this blanket was a little therapeutic and gave those needed slow moments for the prayers to flow through in a rhythm with the yarn as I pulled through each stitch. My goal was merely to get this blanket started in January, but I finished it. I felt the verse 1 Thessalonians 5:17 "pray without ceasing" woven into this blanket. It felt commissioned to be done with prayer. So I sat in my corner and did just that.
This morning, January 27th, our dear friend left her earthly body. I am broken - in some familiar places, but also in some new ones. The shards of grief are painfully sharp. The ache is deep and this very moment a constant heaviness on my heart and the tears blur my vision. I'm so sad knowing how hard she fought for life and endured great pain with major medical interventions. I know this grief, and I know it will crash in like waves of the ocean and then roll out. I am reminded of a broken piece of glass rolling around in the rough sandy water until it is a lovely piece of smooth sea glass.
While time will never end the yearning pains of grief, it does bring us closer to meeting again - the broken then becomes a miraculous beautiful in His timing - a beautiful broken.
In Loving Memory of Kelsey
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